Crazy Love?…

Despite all the harassments, verbal abuse, physical abuse and emotional abuse that I have experienced at the hands of my husband; I still love him. Of course my love towards him is periodically superseded by feelings of immense hate and disappointment. The first time he physical assaulted me was when I discovered a supposedly funny picture of a naked woman opening her legs thus exposing the near perfect looking vagina and clit one might have seen. What was “comical” was her head was replaced by a goofy looking Asian guy. I failed to see the  joke and confronted him. Without showing a minuscule amount of remorse, he said it’s a joke his friend shared with him. Ok, so why keep it in your phone gallery among my pictures?! I was upset and showed it. He became mad and the rest is history…My neck hurt for a few days, not to mention my feelings. That was 8 years ago. We got married 3 years later. I remembered feeling so happy on the day I was legally his wife,  yet at the same time I felt as if I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life. Boy, was I right!

A beginning of an abused wife’s rant…

I don’t know I ended up in this predicament. Had I only listened to the warnings of my parents….It was 8pm. We were in a rather nice restaurant,  having a somewhat civil conversation while our child innocently rearranged the cutlery.  The topic changed to celebrities.  About Kim and Kanye West to be precise.  He mentioned something about Kanye slathering oil all over Kim’s unclothed body and that unabashed statement made me jolt in my chair. Why would you watch another naked woman when you have a perfectly beautiful wife with you? After all,  you were the one teaching me about right and wrong in our religion.  Why would a self confessed religious man watch these kind of things. He denied watching the oiling action. Rather, he claimed that he read it in a news excerpt.  I was starting to calm down when he added the next few words that made me tremble with anger and disappointment. He proudly cited, besides if I want to watch, it’s my eyes. I was dumbfounded. Why has my husband turn to be such a cruel man? Didn’t he even consider about my feelings? The dinner atmosphere was ruined and despite the tears coming to my eyes, the man only cared that I was causing a scene thus embarrassing him to the public. This is a man that I have been together with for 9 years.

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